November is just over halfway done, and I’m sure you’ve noticed the lack of promised humiliating NaNoWriMo sample posts. it’s time for me to admit defeat. In the nineteen days since NaNoWriMo kicked off, I’ve written maybe a thousand words. General Custer didn’t even manage to fail this hard. I could chastise myself and reflect on all the ways in which I’ve let myself down, or I could let the internets do it. Let’s face it, I criticize myself enough, and it’s time for me to stop Bogarting all the degrading, defeatist comments. It’s someone else’s turn to rain fiery rhetoric down upon my miserable, unworthy carcass. I must prostrate myself before the throngs (ha!) of disappointed followers and accept my just and due punishments, but before I do so, allow me a moment to offer some manner of explanation for my egregious dereliction of duty.
As I mentioned before, Honey Badger and I had a trip planned for the first full week of November. I knew this going into NaNoWriMo, and foolishly thought I could juggle it all, nevermind that I have the hand-eye coordination of a roofie’d quadruple amputee. As it turned out, I worked a total of fourteen hours a day on November 1st and 2nd preparing for my departure, got three hours of sleep before my morning flight on the 3rd, spent the 4th-7th traveling every square inch of Wisconsin in a frigid rental car meeting a whole herd of Honey Badger’s relations, and finally wound up in Milwaukee on the 8th-11th for a rehearsal dinner and wedding. I proceeded to get fabulously and ludicrously hammered at the reception, much to Honey Badger’s delight, and spent the whole of the 11th nursing a well-earned hangover through two four-hour flights.
Long story short, I made it back to Anchorage in one piece, only to be confronted by all the cleaning I failed to get done while I was working overtime the week before I left. You know how it’s hard to tell what your house really smells like until you go away for a few days, and then you walk in the door and go “So, that’s what I smell like?” Yeah, well, apparently I smell like musty upholstery and wet dog. The 13th I returned to work and discovered that one of my backups didn’t do anything while I was gone, and the other screwed things up on a level that would certainly earn a gold medal if “F#$%ing Up” were an Olympic event. I barely managed to crank out a post Friday, in “honor” of the new Twilight movie, and only because I’d written it previously for another (failed) blog. Sometimes it’s nice to have previous screw-ups to fall back on.
I’d be lying if I said the Wisconsin trip was the only thing that set me back, though. I mentioned before that “things have been getting real around here.” You see, Honey Badger and I recently found out we will be relocating to the lower 48. After nearly a decade in Alaska, I’m finally moving to a part of the country that will allow me to drive home (or anywhere, really), where I can actually get stuff delivered to me, and where I can finally wear shorts again. For that last one, I apologize in advance. The problem, of course, is that I haven’t had to apply to a new job in over seven years. I’m like a divorcé getting back in the dating game, praying that teased hair and shoulder pads are still fashionable. The last month and a half has been a scramble to make plans and figure out what I’ll be doing in order to, you know, not starve. So, even though I had fun on the trip, and it would have otherwise been a welcome break, NaNoWriMo isn’t the only thing it got in the way of. We did get a pretty bad-ass caricature drawn at the reception, though.
When I moved to Anchorage, it was fairly simple. My mom and I packed my few worldly possessions in the car and drove up the ALCAN. To say that I have a few more possessions now than I did then is to say that the sun is a tad bright. I also have a rather large dog to contend with, and she does not travel well. Driving the ALCAN in winter is not going to happen, so unless we wait until spring, my only options for transporting Fluffzilla are the plane and the ferry. Aside from the simple logistical concerns of moving, I’ve also been distracted with updating all my application materials and applying for new jobs. While a big part of me is terrified about the prospect of leaving my nice, cozy, familiar job and my health insurance, another part of me sees this as the impetus I need to alter my current, utterly depressing career path. The problem is, I doubt if any company will bother looking at my resume once they see that Alaska address at the top. Perhaps if I had some major, specialized skill, but I’m just another administrative monkey. When my friend Kelly moved to Anchorage, she didn’t get any call-backs on her job applications until I told her to start using my address and phone number. Much as I try to look on the bright side and welcome the change, I’m deeply uncomfortable with not having a job lined up prior to my move.
So, there you have it, ladies and gentleman of the jury. I have presented my version of the events in response to the charges laid against me. I am very disappointed that I have failed myself in this endeavor, but even more so that I have failed you. I promised you a month-long display of hastily hammered out, shameful writing, and in failing to deliver I have deprived you of the joys inherent in mocking bad prose. It’s always good to feel better than someone else (case in point: Honey Boo Boo), and I fell short of my promise to be your zero. So, here I kneel before this just and vengeful court of public opinion, begging you to show mercy. While I am guilty of the factual charges, I will only remind you that I was operating under psychological duress. Also, given what you now know about upheaval in my life, I think we can all agree that I must have been suffering from an acute case of temporary insanity to think for a second that NaNoWriMo was an achievable goal this particular November. So, if the foreman will please read the verdict and impose my sentence, I am ready. Shoot straight, you bastards.